AURELIAN'S MOONLIGHT SONATA: februarie 2009

Dragostea Unui baiat Pt. o Fata

Cat De Mult Te-am Iubit

Chiar daca n-o mai vad zambind

Chiar daca n-o mai simt venind

Chiar daca , chiar daca nuinteleg cums-a-ntamplat

Chiar daca n-o mai pot suna

Chiar daca, doar amintirile au ramas de atunci cu noi

Chiar daca nu-ti mai pot vorbi

Chiar daca nu te mai pot intalni

Chiar daca tot universul e intre noi

Chiar daca eu nu sunt vinovat

Chiar daca,... eu n-am uitat

Chiar daca lumea s-a impartit subit la doi

Chiar daca viata ne-a speriat

Chiar daca sti, eu n-am uitat, si telefonul suna...

Cat de mult te-am iubit...

Cat te-am iubit de mult...

Chiar daca nu te mai vad

Chiar daca nu mai cred

Chiar daca nu mai stiu unde esti

Chiar daca, eu te mai vad trecand

Chiar daca , la brat cu mine ,mergand

Chiar daca , din cand , eu privesc inapoi

Ce mult te-am iubit.....

Was It There?

When love has come

But soon is GONE

It begs the question

Was it THERE?

The love was LOST

And NEVER found

Lost without you

Lost without me

Lost in ETERNITY

The love was just a FIGMENT

A figment of our minds

Something we could ponder

But never EXPRESS

Was it LOVE or just a FEELING ?

Was it LOVE or just HEALING ?

HEALING from the hartred

The hartred of our hearts

Our past was deep and fool of pain

Wee NEEDED this to release the strain

For this I DO NOT REGRET

The TIME with you that I had spent

It Makes Me Feel Like Crying

All of us have had a broken heart. Even if it was a childhood sweetheart who left you for another boy who gave her a lollipop or a ten year marriage ended by adultery.

Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better?

Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. We just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past.

(Everything I Do) I Do It For You

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you

I Cryed Over You

You tried to hide yourself in a shell
You wanted heaven but you got hell
And then the darkness gained control over you
When everything turned into bitter blue
You went into the land of no return

They never ever gave you a chance
No dreams
No hopes
No helping hand
Someone took all the colors out of your life
That's when one night you
Left it all behind
You went into the land of return

Myself

“I would like to introduce myself to you. But don’t rush me. Give me time. Allow me to take it slow. I am a drug, and I can be addictive in a certain manner.”

I go by four attractive names; I am SELF-SUFFICIENCY, I am INDEPENDENCE, I am PERFECTION, and I am INTELLIGENCE (at least, that’s what I think I am). However, I shall let you into a secret, I also go by four other wretched names; I am DENIAL, I am ESCAPE, I am PRETENSION and I am WEAKNESS. How could I ever deny these truths?

I wanted reason, and I desired for chance as much. I asserted to have space, to be able to run my life the way I wanted it to be. I hated pain, I lament at suffering and I want to protect myself from getting hurt. What must I do?

“I came to my rescue. I made myself invincible. I created a world where I could navigate my fears with mastery. Rather than wait for pain to dawn on me or rather than wait to realize that people had inflicted pain on me, I have created my own pain.”

I am SELF-SUFFICIENCY, therefore, I am better off alone. Don’t make me need you. I have to keep on saying “no”. I can get by alone. I am not arrogant nor I am warding you off because you are nothing to my taste. I am warding you off, on the contrary, to save you from knowing that I need help, that sometimes I could get too overwhelmed. I could have opted to shout or to let you hear my cry, but that might make you afraid of me. I am DENIAL, I hate the thought of people leaving so I leave them before they could do that to me.

I am INDEPENDENCE. I am free. I don’t need to belong nor to get involved. I have planted a prickly thought in my head and that is, “I don’t necessarily have to make myself meddle into relationships.” People come and go. Trust is a folly. Promises are mere words deprived of action. Presence is something one can never depend on. Love appears in order to disappear later on. I amESCAPE, I don’t want to put myself to risk by trusting. I had enough of broken promises. Why should I allow a certain feeling to materialize when I know it’s bound to disintegrate? I have to keep myself away.

I am PERFECTION. I am equipped with reason. I adore logic and I understand what is hidden behind mere words and action. I understand what people want, perfectly well. But what cuts deep, is when I’m bound to understand and accept what others feel and how others perceive things at the expense of my own sentiments. I amPRETENSION, I walk upright in the guise of maturity when in fact I am already jaded—-already ready to give up. How have I longed to be understood rather than to understand.

I am INTELLIGENCE and my knowledge is stacking up. I pore on books, skim through its pages and taste every bit of wit and wonder it has to offer. I exist to live by my ideas. I am a poet, a philosopher, an artist, and a director. However, I am an idiot. I am a fool. I am somebody who praises knowledge in order to fill in the empty space I am in. I am WEAKNESS! I hate my ambivalence. I regret the fact that I rule out my emotions with what I know. I couldn’t even say that I need you or I am counting on you. I am afraid although I usually act brave.

Whatever I am in right now, I have to remain stationary. I must not move. I must stay rooted. I don’t actually care if no one feels like listening or understanding. This has been the bravest thing I’ve done.

AURELIAN'S MOONLIGHT SONATA

Dragostea Unui baiat Pt. o Fata

Cat De Mult Te-am Iubit

IMAGINE THE PUREST LOVE

Was It There?

Falling In Love

It Makes Me Feel Like Crying

(Everything I Do) I Do It For You

I Cryed Over You

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