With the curtains drawn together,
At my table of rough wood,
And the firelight flickering softly,
Do I fall to thoughtful mood.
Flocks and flocks of sweet illusions,
Memories the mind recalls,
And they softly creep like crickets
Through time's grey and crumbled walls;
Or they drop with gentle patter
On the pavement of the soul,
As does wax before God's altar
From the sacred candles roll.
About the room in every corner
Silver webs the spiders sew,
While among the dusty bookshelves
Furtive mice soft come and go.
And I gaze towards the ceiling
That so many times I saw,
And I listen how the bindings
With their tiny teeth they gnaw.
O, how often have I wanted
My worn Lyre aside to lay;
From poetry and solitude
At last my thoughts to turn away.
But again the mice, the crickets,
With their small and rustling tread,
Awake in me familiar longings
And with poetry fill my head.
Once in a while, alas too rarely,
When my lamp is burning late,
Suddenly my heart beats wildly
For I hear the latch-bar grate.
It is She. My dusky chamber
In a moment seems to glow;
As if an icon's holy lustre
Did o'er life's threshold flow.
And I know not how the moments
Have the heart away to sneak,
While we whisper low our loving,
Hand in hand, and cheek to cheek
I 'L DO MY CRYING IN THE RAIN
Ill never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting in me
I’ve got my pride and I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
If I wait for stormy skies
You won’t know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You’’ll never know that I still love you so
Only heart is remain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
Since we’re not together
I pray for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you’ll never see
Someday when my crying is done
I’m gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool but till then, darling, you never see me complain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
Since we’re not together
I pray for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you’ll never see
Someday when my crying is done
I’m gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool but till then, darling, you never see me complain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
Dulceata Primului Sarut
Acum , la aproape 14 ani de la ‘’eveniment’’, si acum acele clipe , se revarsa precum un suvoi de apa vie , si imi cutremura sufletul la simpla pronuntare a numelui ei: ALEXANDRA .
Asadar in vara anului 1996 , eram un simplu baietel, iesit de pe bancile jocului cu masinute, mi se parea déja neinteresant, vroiam mai mult…., deoarece o fetita imi furase privirea si faptura toata, Si cand s-a lasat peste mine curajul sa ‘’ii cer prietenia’’ (deoarece asa se facea pe acele vremuri ) si ea devenise in mod official ‘’gagicuta mea’’.
Un vis devenit realitate, acea blonduta cu parul lung si matasos, chipul ei .., pielea catifelata, parfumului ei…, atingerea suava a obrazului ei…, eram official ‘’VRAJIT’’, ce mai… Dupa o perioada , mandru fiind in cartier de blonduta mea, m-am hotarat brusc , daca tot am gagicuta , ca ar fi cazul sa o sarut…)), doar asa se cuvine intr-un cuplu!!!! ( vazusem si eu pe strada liceenii…) Asadar si prin urmare , intr-o zi, de dimineata , hotarat fiind, imi facusem planul, In seara asta voi gusta mierea buzitelor ei.
Zis si facut, seara zilei venise repede, si fiind cu ea singurel , o pacalisem sa vina cu mine, sa-i arat ceva in ‘’Spatele Blocului’’ ( da , stiu …puteti sa radeti..)). Ajuns la fata locului, 1,2,3 numarasem in gand si din acel moment incepusem sa ma indestulez cu dulceata . Invioratoare , mai dulci decat fagurii erau buzele ei, atunci realizasem frumusetea negraita a ei si cu glas de prasnuire sufletul meu striga : TE IUBESC, simteam revarsarea linistii in acel moment. Si astfel se petrecuse primul meu sarut, primind astfel desteptarea fagaduita a tainelor iubirii .
Acel ‘’moment’’ ne-a schimbat pe amandoi, savurand multe momente identice in in acea vara. Acum, la 26 de ani impliniti , acele clipe unice adesea imi revin in minte si ma reantorc in trecut sa fiu din nou ‘’baiet’’ cutreeand ‘’paduri’’.
Multumesc ALEXANDRA , pentru ca ai vazut camara mea , sub chipul palatelor stralucitoare. Al tau si pentru totdeauna baietel , Aurelian, IMI LIPSESTI
Unchained Love
Haaa...
S-a intamplat ca-n totdeuna,
S-a intamplat adevarat
S-a dus, RAUL si FURTUNA,
Cerul e din nou CURAT.
( I have created this video, with the ideea that LOVE does exist , and thats how i fanncy it...)))
Just let yourself in it , imagine ..., your greatest LOVE)
Daca
Chiar daca…
Chiar daca singur m-ai lasa la margine de lume
Eu nu vreau sa te parasesc
Chiar si cand suferinta-mi va fi mare
Ajuta-ma sa pot sa te iubesc
Chiar daca lacrimile-mi curg pe fata
In Tine am putere sa zambesc
Cand viata-mi e lipsita de speranta
Tu da-mi putere sa traiesc
Chiar dac-ar fi sa cad in deznadejde
Doamne…sa nu ma parasesti!
Ci tu ridica-ma de jos,
Si spune-mi iar ca ma iubest
Cat De Mult Te-am Iubit
Chiar daca n-o mai vad zambind
Chiar daca n-o mai simt venind
Chiar daca , chiar daca nuinteleg cums-a-ntamplat
Chiar daca n-o mai pot suna
Chiar daca, doar amintirile au ramas de atunci cu noi
Chiar daca nu-ti mai pot vorbi
Chiar daca nu te mai pot intalni
Chiar daca tot universul e intre noi
Chiar daca eu nu sunt vinovat
Chiar daca,... eu n-am uitat
Chiar daca lumea s-a impartit subit la doi
Chiar daca viata ne-a speriat
Chiar daca sti, eu n-am uitat, si telefonul suna...
Cat de mult te-am iubit...
Cat te-am iubit de mult...
Chiar daca nu te mai vad
Chiar daca nu mai cred
Chiar daca nu mai stiu unde esti
Chiar daca, eu te mai vad trecand
Chiar daca , la brat cu mine ,mergand
Chiar daca , din cand , eu privesc inapoi
Ce mult te-am iubit.....
Was It There?
When love has come
But soon is GONE
It begs the question
Was it THERE?
The love was LOST
And NEVER found
Lost without you
Lost without me
Lost in ETERNITY
The love was just a FIGMENT
A figment of our minds
Something we could ponder
But never EXPRESS
Was it LOVE or just a FEELING ?
Was it LOVE or just HEALING ?
HEALING from the hartred
The hartred of our hearts
Our past was deep and fool of pain
Wee NEEDED this to release the strain
For this I DO NOT REGRET
The TIME with you that I had spent
It Makes Me Feel Like Crying
All of us have had a broken heart. Even if it was a childhood sweetheart who left you for another boy who gave her a lollipop or a ten year marriage ended by adultery.
Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better?
Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. We just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past.
(Everything I Do) I Do It For You
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you
I Cryed Over You
You tried to hide yourself in a shell
You wanted heaven but you got hell
And then the darkness gained control over you
When everything turned into bitter blue
You went into the land of no return
They never ever gave you a chance
No dreams
No hopes
No helping hand
Someone took all the colors out of your life
That's when one night you
Left it all behind
You went into the land of return
A Special World
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.
Sorry, I love you
Sorry, I love you
We’ve been friends since childhood,
Until the time we came to adulthood,
We’ve been together since times of play,
Until the time came to us for serious play.
We’ve been supporting each other
In everything we opted to do,
We’ve been shoulders to cry on,
When life seemed to be cruel.
We’ve known each other’s secrets,
Keeping them with no regrets,
Until the time came on me,
Intimate feelings for you I hid.
Everytime we’ve been together,
My heart seemed to pound so strong,
Everytime we are apart from each other,
My heart seemed to grow fonder.
Now I’m in front of you,
My flame of courage starts burning,
Not knowing how to say the words
I’ve been longing to say.
“Sorry, I love you”
Is what I want to say,
Will this end our friendship,
Or this will start an intimate relationship?
You
You
I love the wavy you look at me
The way you hold me in your arms.
Your crooked smile and beautiful face,
lets me know your never to far.
So tonight when I close my eyes,
I'll be dreaming of you.
Wrapping each memory of you sercurly around my heart.
Hold me close and don't ever back out.
Forever and ever babe has never had such a meaning until
I found a place in your heart.
I love you more than words can express,
I need you like a heart needs a beat.
Without you my life would never be the same.
So remember this when your lips touch mine
that you will have me for the end of time.
Note To Self
Note To Self
I love you friend
I'm there for you
are you there for me?
you walk away
I run right towards you
you stay so far
I keep you close
and here's my prayer
my vow to you
I'll be there friend
my intention clear
I'll make it stop
the torment you bear
I'll break that wall
I'll cross the line
you may get angry
you may get sad
you may not like me
but truth is this
I'll tear that bandage
wounds will bleed
I'll make you feel
the numbness leaves
you'll feel that pain
you'll know the hurt
all to help you
to keep you here
you'll know the damage
the mess you are
your life is broken
I'll fix you up
I'll give you praise
the strength you need
I'll open eyes
I'll make you see
you're more than this
so stay with me
I love you friend
please don't go
I'm right here waiting
you're all I've got
Purple Feelings
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happiness sewed with tears
colorful backgrounds disguise bloody hills
is this our love?
just a mask on empty feeling
usual actions that hide a horrible killing
a fake smile to prove that we are in pain
a dead heart to show we're still awake
breath in breath out
i take the challenge of another day
moving like a corpse trying to win a game i can't play
is love a lie?
thats what i think
while losing more tears every time i blink
my words don't reach you in that empty space
locked away in your own little place
i begged you to take me
in your own little world
to give me the key so i can open your closed door
but only pain
lays in your dark heart
your suffering brakes me aparat
i don't want this love
take it from me
i don't want to suffer from disbelief
this world is to cruel
my feelings are so empty
our tears are filled with lies
again something in me dies
than reborn's to see the light
torturing myself over and over again
nothing good"s gonna come , nothing new will stand.
is this love ?
no , it's murder between our hearts
it's a massacre that's in front of our eyes
but we chose not to see it
and take it over again and again
repeating the the same words repeating the same game
lost in the nightmare of love
lost in our own little pain
having the same purple feelings
destroying each other with hate.
Voulez-Vous Coucher Avec Moi
Make me your lover
let me take you back home tonight.
How I want you to kiss
want your body to move
And I want you to touch
gonna break every rule
I can imagine how it feels
and we are lying skin to skin
Heaven is just one word away
so can't we do it now?
Hungry for love
Voulez-Vous Coucher Avec Moi
Do You Think Im Not Trying?
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Do you think I’m not trying? Do you think I am on the verge of giving up? At least, not yet.
How hard is it to understand life? How hard is it to understand the real situation? Isn’t it that obvious? Do you want me to slap it in your face? I need help and I am drowning. Do you still want to see me in a coffin just to let you realize how hard the road I’ve been walking and still walking on?
How hard is it to become a fool sometimes just to get through the thick times? Do we need to listen to what others would tell? Are they one of us? Are they that sensible to your life? How hard is it? Can you please clear out the questions in my mind?
I’m not sturdy but I’m trying to be one. I’ve been diving to uncertainties and hurting myself with what I just did just to get some changes out of it. But here I am again in this carousel life we live. So stubborn with my love to you that I even forget myself to show a real smile. I hate to die but I am dying.
So, please now can you tell me. How hard is it? How hard is it understand and realize where I have been standing all along.
Flames Of Love
What kind of man, what kind of man am I ?
I try to walk where I just fell, I try to break a secret spell,
In your eyes I feel the flames of love.
Flames of love, flames of love,
I'm drowning in the sea of love and enough is never enough.
When I find myself deep in your eyes over and over again -
Flames of love.
What kind of fool, what kind of fool am I ?
I look for shadows in the sun, for memories of days to come,
In your eyes I feel the flames of love.
Flames of love, flames of love,
I'm drowning in the sea of love and enough is never enough.
When I find myself deep in your eyes over and over again -
Flames of love.
I surrender to sweet death in your arms in a wawe of lustful life.
You touch me so deep, I cry out melting in the flames of love.
Flames of love, flames of love,
I'm drowning in the sea of love and enough is never enough.
When I find myself deep in your eyes over and over again -
Flames of love.
De ce-i asa.. O stie El
De ce ades mi-e dat pe cale
Sa-ndur dureri si fel de fel,
De ce-s lovit adesea oare?
Eu nu-nteleg, dar stie El!
Cand cunoscut-am Adevarul
Si vrut-am sa spun despre El,
Silit am fost sa tac adesea …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!
Din painea mea am dat altora
Fari sa ma tem ca ma insel.
Rasplata? M-au lovit cu pietre …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!
Cand m-am luptat cu valul vietii
Si cand era s-ajung la tel,
Ma vad cu barca rasturnata …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!
Cand moartea lupta pe-ndelete
Sa rup-al dragostei inel,
Raman copii sarmani pe drumuri …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!
Greu apasat privesc adesea
Calvarul, Crucea si pe Miel;
De ce sunt lacrimi fara vina,
Eu nu-nteleg, dar stie El!
Cand mi-am trait mereu viata
In curatii de porumbel,
Stropit am fost cu murdarie,
De ce-i asa, o stie El!
Eu nu-nteleg, dar cred intr-una
Si cred cu patima si zel,
Ca multe din ce mi se-ntampla
Nu le-nteleg, dar stie El!
Si cand ajunge-voi in ceruri,
Cu Domnul, in al Sau Castel,
M-oi intreba: Cum de-s acolo?
Raspuns la toate-mi va da El!
Daca noua Oamenilor ne scoapa multe din control…"PROVIDENTEI" nu ii scapa nimic niciodata. El are controlul deplin asupra tuturor lucrurilor… Fiti tari si incredeti-va in "EL" cu toata inima voastra!
Fiti Super-binecuvantati!
Acum ceva timp am auzit despre un baietel care vroia sa atinga cerul.Avea in fata casei lui un deal destul de inalt si a crezut de la inceput ca in acel loc se uneste cerul cu pamantul,nestiind ce e aia linia orizontului… Intr-o zi,fara sa spuna nimanui, si-a luat inima in dinti,rucsacul in care avea ceva de mancare,si a pornit”sa atinga cerul”…
Dupa aproximativ doua ore se afla in varful dealului din fata casei.. si in mod absolut ciudat pt el…cerul nu era acolo…A observat insa dupa acest deal un altul mai mare… Dupa inca vreo 3 ore ajunsese in varful celuilalt deal.. si cerul nu era nici acolo.Se simtea dezamagit.Toata viata lui si-a dorit sa urce dealul crezand ca va atinge cerul.
Si-a dat seama ca totul e o iluzie si s-a gandit sa se intoarca acasa.. unde parintii il asteptau ingrijorati.. fusese plecat toata ziua…degeaba…
De ce v-am spus aceasta ilustratie.. pt ca de multe ori si noi,oamenii mari,facem lafel…Cei mai multi nu isi petrec doar o zi sau un an ci toata viata alergand dupa iluzii in cautarea cerului,in cautarea fericirii…Au dealuri inalte in fara casei…idealuri,vise… si au impresia ca implinirea lor le va aduce fericirea .Dar constata dezamagiti cand ajung in varful dealului ca cerul nu e acolo.. si alearga spre munti mai mari…Cel mai cunoscut munte al sufletelor neimplinite este Muntele averii… Dar cerul nu e nici macar acolo.. in varful muntelui..
Poate strigi si tu “vreau sa ating cerul!”
Stand in palma lui Dumnezeu cerul e-n tine!
Cerul e-n noi!
Sometimes
Intr-o zi…
Intr-o zi voi ajunge in ceruri
Si voi astampara setea sufletului meu
Si voi striga:Sunt fericit!
Pe vesnicie cu Tine,Dumnezeu!
Intr-o zi voi uita ce-I durerea
Stand in prezenta-Ti mareata
Voi simti ce-nseamna mangaierea,
Ce-nseamna adevarata viata
Ma arde dorul dupa Tine
Dar stiu,tu mi-ai promis ca vi
Si ca voi fi mereu cu Tine
Intr-o zi…
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