A Special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

Sorry, I love you

Sorry, I love you

We’ve been friends since childhood,
Until the time we came to adulthood,
We’ve been together since times of play,
Until the time came to us for serious play.

We’ve been supporting each other
In everything we opted to do,
We’ve been shoulders to cry on,
When life seemed to be cruel.

We’ve known each other’s secrets,
Keeping them with no regrets,
Until the time came on me,
Intimate feelings for you I hid.

Everytime we’ve been together,
My heart seemed to pound so strong,
Everytime we are apart from each other,
My heart seemed to grow fonder.

Now I’m in front of you,
My flame of courage starts burning,
Not knowing how to say the words
I’ve been longing to say.

“Sorry, I love you”
Is what I want to say,
Will this end our friendship,
Or this will start an intimate relationship?

You

I love the wavy you look at me
The way you hold me in your arms.
Your crooked smile and beautiful face,
lets me know your never to far.
So tonight when I close my eyes,
I'll be dreaming of you.
Wrapping each memory of you sercurly around my heart.
Hold me close and don't ever back out.
Forever and ever babe has never had such a meaning until
I found a place in your heart.
I love you more than words can express,
I need you like a heart needs a beat.
Without you my life would never be the same.
So remember this when your lips touch mine
that you will have me for the end of time.

Note To Self

Note To Self
I love you friend
I'm there for you
are you there for me?
you walk away
I run right towards you
you stay so far
I keep you close
and here's my prayer
my vow to you
I'll be there friend
my intention clear
I'll make it stop
the torment you bear
I'll break that wall
I'll cross the line
you may get angry
you may get sad
you may not like me
but truth is this
I'll tear that bandage
wounds will bleed
I'll make you feel
the numbness leaves
you'll feel that pain
you'll know the hurt
all to help you
to keep you here
you'll know the damage
the mess you are
your life is broken
I'll fix you up
I'll give you praise
the strength you need
I'll open eyes
I'll make you see
you're more than this
so stay with me
I love you friend
please don't go
I'm right here waiting
you're all I've got

Purple Feelings

happiness sewed with tears
colorful backgrounds disguise bloody hills
is this our love?
just a mask on empty feeling
usual actions that hide a horrible killing
a fake smile to prove that we are in pain
a dead heart to show we're still awake
breath in breath out
i take the challenge of another day
moving like a corpse trying to win a game i can't play
is love a lie?
thats what i think
while losing more tears every time i blink
my words don't reach you in that empty space
locked away in your own little place
i begged you to take me
in your own little world
to give me the key so i can open your closed door
but only pain
lays in your dark heart
your suffering brakes me aparat
i don't want this love
take it from me
i don't want to suffer from disbelief
this world is to cruel
my feelings are so empty
our tears are filled with lies
again something in me dies
than reborn's to see the light
torturing myself over and over again
nothing good"s gonna come , nothing new will stand.
is this love ?
no , it's murder between our hearts
it's a massacre that's in front of our eyes
but we chose not to see it
and take it over again and again
repeating the the same words repeating the same game
lost in the nightmare of love
lost in our own little pain
having the same purple feelings
destroying each other with hate.

Voulez-Vous Coucher Avec Moi

Make me your lover
let me take you back home tonight.
How I want you to kiss
want your body to move

And I want you to touch
gonna break every rule
I can imagine how it feels
and we are lying skin to skin

Heaven is just one word away
so can't we do it now?
Hungry for love
Voulez-Vous Coucher Avec Moi

I'm not perfect
I'll annoy you
Piss you off
Say Stupid stuff
And then take it back
But put all that aside
You'll never find a boy that
Cares and love you
More than me

Do You Think Im Not Trying?

Do you think I’m not trying? Do you think I am on the verge of giving up? At least, not yet.

How hard is it to understand life? How hard is it to understand the real situation? Isn’t it that obvious? Do you want me to slap it in your face? I need help and I am drowning. Do you still want to see me in a coffin just to let you realize how hard the road I’ve been walking and still walking on?

How hard is it to become a fool sometimes just to get through the thick times? Do we need to listen to what others would tell? Are they one of us? Are they that sensible to your life? How hard is it? Can you please clear out the questions in my mind?

I’m not sturdy but I’m trying to be one. I’ve been diving to uncertainties and hurting myself with what I just did just to get some changes out of it. But here I am again in this carousel life we live. So stubborn with my love to you that I even forget myself to show a real smile. I hate to die but I am dying.

So, please now can you tell me. How hard is it? How hard is it understand and realize where I have been standing all along.

Flames Of Love


What kind of man, what kind of man am I ?

I try to walk where I just fell, I try to break a secret spell,

In your eyes I feel the flames of love.



Flames of love, flames of love,

I'm drowning in the sea of love and enough is never enough.

When I find myself deep in your eyes over and over again -

Flames of love.


What kind of fool, what kind of fool am I ?

I look for shadows in the sun, for memories of days to come,

In your eyes I feel the flames of love.


Flames of love, flames of love,

I'm drowning in the sea of love and enough is never enough.

When I find myself deep in your eyes over and over again -

Flames of love.


I surrender to sweet death in your arms in a wawe of lustful life.

You touch me so deep, I cry out melting in the flames of love.


Flames of love, flames of love,

I'm drowning in the sea of love and enough is never enough.

When I find myself deep in your eyes over and over again -

Flames of love.

Flames of love

De ce-i asa.. O stie El

De ce ades mi-e dat pe cale
Sa-ndur dureri si fel de fel,
De ce-s lovit adesea oare?
Eu nu-nteleg, dar stie El!

Cand cunoscut-am Adevarul
Si vrut-am sa spun despre El,
Silit am fost sa tac adesea …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!

Din painea mea am dat altora
Fari sa ma tem ca ma insel.
Rasplata? M-au lovit cu pietre …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!

Cand m-am luptat cu valul vietii
Si cand era s-ajung la tel,
Ma vad cu barca rasturnata …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!

Cand moartea lupta pe-ndelete
Sa rup-al dragostei inel,
Raman copii sarmani pe drumuri …
De ce-i asa, o stie El!

Greu apasat privesc adesea
Calvarul, Crucea si pe Miel;
De ce sunt lacrimi fara vina,
Eu nu-nteleg, dar stie El!

Cand mi-am trait mereu viata
In curatii de porumbel,
Stropit am fost cu murdarie,
De ce-i asa, o stie El!

Eu nu-nteleg, dar cred intr-una
Si cred cu patima si zel,
Ca multe din ce mi se-ntampla
Nu le-nteleg, dar stie El!

Si cand ajunge-voi in ceruri,
Cu Domnul, in al Sau Castel,
M-oi intreba: Cum de-s acolo?
Raspuns la toate-mi va da El!

Daca noua Oamenilor ne scoapa multe din control…"PROVIDENTEI" nu ii scapa nimic niciodata. El are controlul deplin asupra tuturor lucrurilor… Fiti tari si incredeti-va in "EL" cu toata inima voastra!

Fiti Super-binecuvantati!

Acum ceva timp am auzit despre un baietel care vroia sa atinga cerul.Avea in fata casei lui un deal destul de inalt si a crezut de la inceput ca in acel loc se uneste cerul cu pamantul,nestiind ce e aia linia orizontului… Intr-o zi,fara sa spuna nimanui, si-a luat inima in dinti,rucsacul in care avea ceva de mancare,si a pornit”sa atinga cerul”…

Dupa aproximativ doua ore se afla in varful dealului din fata casei.. si in mod absolut ciudat pt el…cerul nu era acolo…A observat insa dupa acest deal un altul mai mare… Dupa inca vreo 3 ore ajunsese in varful celuilalt deal.. si cerul nu era nici acolo.Se simtea dezamagit.Toata viata lui si-a dorit sa urce dealul crezand ca va atinge cerul.

Si-a dat seama ca totul e o iluzie si s-a gandit sa se intoarca acasa.. unde parintii il asteptau ingrijorati.. fusese plecat toata ziua…degeaba…

De ce v-am spus aceasta ilustratie.. pt ca de multe ori si noi,oamenii mari,facem lafel…Cei mai multi nu isi petrec doar o zi sau un an ci toata viata alergand dupa iluzii in cautarea cerului,in cautarea fericirii…Au dealuri inalte in fara casei…idealuri,vise… si au impresia ca implinirea lor le va aduce fericirea .Dar constata dezamagiti cand ajung in varful dealului ca cerul nu e acolo.. si alearga spre munti mai mari…Cel mai cunoscut munte al sufletelor neimplinite este Muntele averii… Dar cerul nu e nici macar acolo.. in varful muntelui..

Poate strigi si tu “vreau sa ating cerul!”

Stand in palma lui Dumnezeu cerul e-n tine!

Cerul e-n noi!

Sometimes

Intr-o zi…

Intr-o zi voi ajunge in ceruri

Si voi astampara setea sufletului meu

Si voi striga:Sunt fericit!

Pe vesnicie cu Tine,Dumnezeu!

Intr-o zi voi uita ce-I durerea

Stand in prezenta-Ti mareata

Voi simti ce-nseamna mangaierea,

Ce-nseamna adevarata viata

Ma arde dorul dupa Tine

Dar stiu,tu mi-ai promis ca vi

Si ca voi fi mereu cu Tine

Intr-o zi…

Myself

“I would like to introduce myself to you. But don’t rush me. Give me time. Allow me to take it slow. I am a drug, and I can be addictive in a certain manner.”

I go by four attractive names; I am SELF-SUFFICIENCY, I am INDEPENDENCE, I am PERFECTION, and I am INTELLIGENCE (at least, that’s what I think I am). However, I shall let you into a secret, I also go by four other wretched names; I am DENIAL, I am ESCAPE, I am PRETENSION and I am WEAKNESS. How could I ever deny these truths?

I wanted reason, and I desired for chance as much. I asserted to have space, to be able to run my life the way I wanted it to be. I hated pain, I lament at suffering and I want to protect myself from getting hurt. What must I do?

“I came to my rescue. I made myself invincible. I created a world where I could navigate my fears with mastery. Rather than wait for pain to dawn on me or rather than wait to realize that people had inflicted pain on me, I have created my own pain.”

I am SELF-SUFFICIENCY, therefore, I am better off alone. Don’t make me need you. I have to keep on saying “no”. I can get by alone. I am not arrogant nor I am warding you off because you are nothing to my taste. I am warding you off, on the contrary, to save you from knowing that I need help, that sometimes I could get too overwhelmed. I could have opted to shout or to let you hear my cry, but that might make you afraid of me. I am DENIAL, I hate the thought of people leaving so I leave them before they could do that to me.

I am INDEPENDENCE. I am free. I don’t need to belong nor to get involved. I have planted a prickly thought in my head and that is, “I don’t necessarily have to make myself meddle into relationships.” People come and go. Trust is a folly. Promises are mere words deprived of action. Presence is something one can never depend on. Love appears in order to disappear later on. I amESCAPE, I don’t want to put myself to risk by trusting. I had enough of broken promises. Why should I allow a certain feeling to materialize when I know it’s bound to disintegrate? I have to keep myself away.

I am PERFECTION. I am equipped with reason. I adore logic and I understand what is hidden behind mere words and action. I understand what people want, perfectly well. But what cuts deep, is when I’m bound to understand and accept what others feel and how others perceive things at the expense of my own sentiments. I amPRETENSION, I walk upright in the guise of maturity when in fact I am already jaded—-already ready to give up. How have I longed to be understood rather than to understand.

I am INTELLIGENCE and my knowledge is stacking up. I pore on books, skim through its pages and taste every bit of wit and wonder it has to offer. I exist to live by my ideas. I am a poet, a philosopher, an artist, and a director. However, I am an idiot. I am a fool. I am somebody who praises knowledge in order to fill in the empty space I am in. I am WEAKNESS! I hate my ambivalence. I regret the fact that I rule out my emotions with what I know. I couldn’t even say that I need you or I am counting on you. I am afraid although I usually act brave.

Whatever I am in right now, I have to remain stationary. I must not move. I must stay rooted. I don’t actually care if no one feels like listening or understanding. This has been the bravest thing I’ve done.

AURELIAN'S MOONLIGHT SONATA